Henceforth, I have moved back to Livejournal and can be located at hourlilies @ livejournal . com

Yeah, I know I'm pretty awful at keeping blogs (the LJ one is probably my 4th in 2 years) but well ... we'll see how things go, I guess. :)

If you happen to read my Wordpress blog, I'll still be posting there, no worries.

... as a side rant/angry-note, PRELIMS IS THE ABSOLUTE !!. But I bet As will be worse, so oh wellohwell.

Cheers.

yish
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A public shout out to those who made 18th memorable -

Keax&Aur - nearly 6 years and counting, eh? Despite the whole poly-jc-jc thing or the east-north-north divides, we somehow manage to laugh about everything under the sun. Of course our LOVE for all things Japanese (and Asian) makes a hell load of difference, and even though I have completely different friendships with both of you, I'm glad we made it as a trio. Remember IR (oh Sec 2 horrors!) Thanks for Billy Bombers & shopping trip on Friday!

The GANG: Aileen, Jeremy, Shaun, ANEESA (hmphhh why you never attend ): ), Ming Lee, Teng Leong & Kang Hao & the rest who we see on an on/off basis -
THANKS for the great foodie night at Smith Street! I'm still feeling extremely bloated, ugh (esp after the zhongjimima with the chocs) despite our age difference or jc difference or WHATEVER, I'm so terribly glad that we have birthdays as excuses to get everyone together. Tonight was amazing (because of food and of course all of you!), thank you so much, I feel terribly blessed aye!

People at school - TOOO long a list, but you know who you are, and thanks for the celebrations!! even though being 18 is just about being THE legal age, that's all.

Online/Overseas friends - never have I had so many international SMSes! :) thankyouthankyou, you know I love you all eh no matter where you guys are! and I know those SMSes must have cost quite a bit, hehe.

and to the rest of the wonderful people who SMSed (especially the surprised shockers), thank you as well. :)

yish
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Theatre Studies and Drama 2006
Public Performance
Victoria Junior College, Various Spaces
15th - 16th July, 7pm - 9-ish
Tickets priced at $8 each, $12 for a pair.

If you like to watch theatre at a really affordable price, let me know. WE ARE BLOODY AMAZING FOR A BUNCH OF 17/18 YEAR OLDS, OKAY. And you can also figure out why I've practically vanished from the surface of the earth for the past few months, but why I do love what I'm doing despite the way I gripe about it sometimes.

On another thought: don't bother coming for me, actually, because I'm barely performing (just with my group), but I would really love to hang out still.

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A few months ago (May, to be exact), I wrote this after quite alot of dazed moments, reflections and contemplations. And actually today I have no idea what possessed me to write something like this - it's funny, but I think the key problem with terrible author-wanna-bes like me is that we always assume we know everything based on a little something.

because love

is often selfish and unkind, we find ourselves victims of the grand conspiracy, wrecked by jealousy and envy.

is often too delightful at first touch, we find ourselves naively succumbing to it, only to find out at the very end that the greatest love of all is the love we have for ourselves, and nothing more.

is often something that people mistake for lust, kindness, grace, or any of those above: we find that too many times we say 'we love', and don't feel our hearts responding.

is often too shortlived, we find ourselves yearn for more, hunger for it, and treasure every memory.

is often too beautiful to be true, we find ourselves to be jaded, disillusioned, and 'i-hate-the-world' at the very end of things.

is crazily anticing, we find ourselves falling in love at first sight, falling for the wrong people, only to have our hearts broken after the whirlwind ride.

but because love is all of those things, and things undiscovered, we find it in ourselves the capacity to love, because we will never know the profund absurdity and beauty of some things until we step into it.

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I don't know why I'm posting it anyway, perhaps I just feel too melancholic and also because of the need to not sound so awful for returning from hiatus just to try to separate you from your money (oh but you will get to watch amazing theatre and talk to me :D - is that even a good enough bargain? heheh.)

yish
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dumdumdum. I am hovering between SCREWEDDOM and FAIRLYSCREWEDDOM, for someone who doesn't spend 28.1923827 hours watching World Cup, I should really be using the 28.1923827 to MUG! (oh glory blessed glory) rather than playing stupid MMORPGS like Silkroad Online till ungodly hours of 4AM, and then waking up to 11AM and splitting headaches (and a vicious cycle). okay, but i like trashing monsters (mwahahaha) at ungodly hours like 4AM, and saying hi to the people from germany and portugal and where the sun is shining BRIGHTLY.

okay, and let's not factor in Youtube which is great source of ANIME FUNNY VIDEOS AND VIDEOS THAT YOU'LL SEE REGARDLESS OF WHETHER YOU HAVE AN INTEREST IN IT ANYWAY!

i have history and lit s work! oh woe betides me.

on a sidenote, teh world is ending. global warming is happening!

okay, enough of midyears-rant and i should start tacking brochures of university of toronto & UBC to EVERYWHERE. i have about 2 months to buck up, pull a b-average, apply to UofT (yes, TORONTO! of broadway musicals, newmindspace, coldweather & fun) & UBC (hello, Brynn & Edward!) and get in. mugmugmugmug!

but for now, because it's the june holidays, i shall enjoy myself for a bit. :) more silkroad online! woohoo.

back to hiatus! (aha)

yish
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I just woke up from a 12-hour sleep (ah, bliss!) - longer than I've ever slept in the past 4 months or so.

Yesterday was a pretty good run (haha this is SUCH an actor term) for me, so I feel satisfied. :D The only thing that caught me off guard was when he asked about one of my concepts (diesandpanics), but hopefully, I covered that pretty okay. The exam didn't feel like an exam at all!! But I'm glad it's over, really.

Sadly though, as Sulas and I were commenting, the last day felt kind of lonely, and individualistic (Sulas assured me that for all the past few exam days it was just like this, which makes it even more sad!?).

Then I cabbed home (seeing as to how nearly ALL the Groopeas magically arrived at school, expecting to LEAVE after Bob's piece - I honestly though we were meeting for dinner!!), fell asleep because our meeting time was shoved to later :P and came late, as usual. I really need to kick this late habit! My stupid Converse sneakers from Sec 3 gave me blisters again (argh, I shall never trust my mum who persuaded me to wear them after so long), so I arrived late and blistery.

We went around, trying to watch movies, Taka basement - fooding, dissing a dance competition in Taka, XIAOLONGBAO :) (which I didn't eat because I felt really full, but it's great that people like BOB! loves it!) er, this uber cool center at Cine when we paid $46 to play X-box, watch Zoolander (one of the most hilariously lame movies I've watched) and play online games! Then off to Starbucks (and here we bid goodbye to Vernie and Saiful) for BANANA CARAMEL FRAPP, my IT drink for now.

It never occured to me how much goodbye would hurt, but now that it's here, I think I may want to hit restart and throw myself into it again.
Still, things change, and we move on, so goodbye, TSD pracs - the many hours of sweat/blood/tears, the teacherly help, the fun we have at night - it may be gone, but the memories will always remain with us, aye? (:

with love:

teachers - mr lofty, mr young, mr alberto & mrs low.
the groopeas - bob, mak, ming (who's in the BIG APPLE!! WICKEDWICKEDWICKED :'(), mik, vern, mike & honorary members (Darrel, Shawn & Saiful ahah).
Set Designers Union - sulas, gen, hani, jas, hweisan & seniors Angela & Corrie.
other loves - Kai, Nicola & everyone else in TSD!

if i had the vocabulary of a dictionary i would express my thanks in a million different ways,
but hopefullyl my heartfelt gratitude and a simple thank you would suffice.
tsd05, you've mean a lot to me, despite me grumbling - i think the journey was worth taking on, hanging on for, and putting my heart and soul into for. it's funny, but i still can remember the 1st day of school in vj when i heard lofty speak so passionately about tsd and i thought: 'why not let's just give it a try?' - and fast forward 1.5 years later, i've given it my best, and loved it from the start to finish.

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I WANT TO GET A DRASTIC HAIRCUT! aha, drastic in the BIG CHANGE way, but not the it's a terrible haircut way. i was kind of thinking of cropping my locks away again and going back to short hair (which is so much more manageable!), but i don't know where else to go to for a good haircut. or i could go trim my hair and keep long hair (omgimsoconfusedoversuchaBIMBOTICissue). :/

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since this chapter of tsd has ended, there's no reason for me to blog here anymore, so goodbye Blogspot! (:

yish
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the trick is to keep breathing,
mind over matter (and crazily thumping hearts),
and believing in it.

yes, i am that petrified. GRAHWR.

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'Yes I know that I'm an idiot when it comes to love. But I won't give up.'
- William from Green Forest, My Home. :)
(but I like Owen so much better, I just prefer guys like Owen to William although both are equally attractive in terms of alot of things).
I shall spend my life obsessing over drama/fictional characters, because seriously, what's there to love in a real guy? :/

yish
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if nothing else:
- a joyride on a bike, for 3 hours or more, and the thought that i can't possibly fall
- a late night outing for supper, without possibly getting caught or having to explain myself
- to end with a bang (i must try, really!) and the fun afterwards
- to curl up and finish up the Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera, which is rather brilliantly written. i am amazed: how do you write so much about life just by talking about inter-related affairs?

and not forgetting:
- the work that comes, the mugging! (think utoronto/ubc utoronto/ubc utoronto/ubc - i need a GPA of above 3.3 to get into most programmes, that means an average of B and above FOR PRELIMS!)
- the immense psychotic Lit S reading.
- History S assignments, grah.
- and yeah, more work.
(and the anime watching, tv drama watching ...)

... where shall we begin?

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I have a job opening, by the way:
MASCOTS AND PUPPETS
ARAB STREET
Fridays, Saturdays & Sundays
(Part-Time)
Pay: Not too sure, but I don't think it's too shabby

Contact me at 91882156 if you want to earn some extra cash! :)

yish
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